My friends can tweet “guess I’ll just go to sleep ):” or something like that and I’ll text them asking if their okay or if they need anything but if I tweet something like “I don’t know if I can do this anymore” and my inbox stays empty. No messages. Or I could mention that I have been feeling a little sad lately and they just brush it off like dust on their shoulders. I know I’m not begging for attention or asking for it even though it feels like I am. But those few little times I attempt to reach out for help or even reassurance my “friends” dismiss it. It shows me that I care more about them than they care about me. I’m not even,like, sad anymore. I’m just far away. Distant. I’m not even here anymore. It’s like being a little bit happy is a weird feeling. I feel like I don’t even deserve to be happy but then again I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I’m sorry for the rant.
Just devoured mac n cheese…ew.